Confessions of a Recovering Prude

This may be hard for you to believe, but I almost divorced my husband over internet porn. Yes, yes, I know I write erotica but stay with me here and I’ll explain. First, you should know that I was raised in the country on a dirt road and went to a little Southern Baptist church and things just were what they were. You didn’t question anything; white was white and black was reallllllly black. <- pun intended. The first time I meet someone who was Jewish I actually said (now, this was at work mind you), ‘Awww, I’m sad you’re going to hell.’ O.o  Yeah. It was bad. It wasn’t until I was much older that I even began to see other’s POV and even later that I began to accept that some of them were okay.

I also got married when I was 22, which, FYI – is really freaking young. The chick I am now at 33 hardly resembles that crazy, little thing all those years ago. I was very insecure and I have no idea why. Everyone always said nice things about me, my husband was super loving…I didn’t have a valid reason for it. So when it came to light that he was into that, my anger was immense. It became a game of cat and mouse really, I would leave traps for him to see if he came home during the day, he would try to avoid them. It was crazy. I finally got to the point where I was convinced he didn’t love me and ready to be done with the whole thing. We broke up for an entire three days until he cried and asked me to come back, vowing never to do things to upset me again. Pie crust promise as ‘ol Mary would say. Easily made, easily broken.

What changed? Well, I did, for one. I grew up, found out who I was and decided I liked her. My husband also quit working two jobs and was home more, giving me the attention I needed. I also made a friend on Twitter who posted pics from a site called Art or Porn all the time and you know, he was the sweetest fella. His wife sounded just like I used to be; very religious and holier-than-thou, and it made him so sad because he just wanted to be with her and be accepted for who he was. I think that is what opened my eyes. It was no longer something to be done in a dark alley by men trying to get away from their wives; it was something to be done together, or apart, knowing that it wasn’t a sign of a failing marriage, but a strong one. So, I began to open my mind I guess you could say. Now – the really funny thing is – the moment I convinced my husband that I was open to those things; he quit doing them so much. Perhaps I don’t sneak around and check up on him anymore because I don’t care and that’s why I think that, but these days, he’s happy looking at stuff with me or working with me on research for a new book. ;) I’m sure there are times when he’s all by his little lonely and things…happen, but it doesn’t make me think less of ‘us’ anymore. It makes me happy that he’s all by his little lonely, waiting for me. 

The writing came simply from a need to create what I liked. Men and women are turned on by different things, that’s just the truth of it. And I decided to make something for women like me, who wanted a little romance with their hair pulling. So there you have it. Prude turned erotica writer. I’ve been married over ten years and we’re more intimately connected now than we were in the beginning and believe me you, anything that a married couple (be it W/M, M/M, W/W) do to keep the love alive is A-OK with me!

Here’s to the couples who’ve made it to the 10-year mark! I hope to see you through to 100 more!

I Blog so I Will not Scream

During the day I am reminded over and over how much I don’t fit in with this whole ‘Corporate America’ business. I’ve never been one to be coy or play games. I ask for what I want, tell you the truth when you ask me a question, admit and apologize when I’ve made a mistake and show gratitude when folks are nice to me. One would think these are all admirable qualities that were instilled in me on a little dirt road and in a little white church as I grew up in a little country town. One would think. In ‘Corporate America’ this is thought of as being too direct, lacking tact and kissing up.

I’ve been with the same company for going on eight years. I’ve seen people come in one way and become someone different to move up, I’ve seen people try entirely too hard to be someone and/or something they aren’t, I’ve seen it all. I can’t help but wonder where these people grew up. Didn’t your momma teach you not to act like that? Didn’t your daddy teach you about honesty and the rewards of a hard day’s work and a job done right? Sometimes I feel physically ill watching the nonsense, which I try to stay out of mind you though sometimes can’t help it.

Whatever.

I cry silent tears as I sit here with hope and genuine pride in my work caught in my throat, for it has nowhere to go, no ears to hear and no hearts to find.  

Winner Winner Chicken Dinner...

The winner of all five of my eBooks is...*Drum Roll*

Shadow! =)

Congratulations!

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Thanks all!

Contest Closed!

Welp, the Blog Hop is over! Thank you so much for your interest in my little blog! There are 8 awesome, amazing comments below and one of those awesome, amazing folks will be the winner of FIVE eBooks. Announcement soon so stay tuned!

SUMMER BLOG HOP!!

Hi, all! =) Thanks for stopping by! If you're here for the Summer Blog Hop, you're in the right place. Brought to you by the amazing CataRomance.com, SensualReads.com and SingleTitles.com, The Summer Blog Hop is a chance for you to hear about some great books for your summer and win FREE STUFF! I'm giving away a copy of my eBook Timeless Love AND a copy of all of my YA books, written under the name Christy Trujillo, which includes Emmy's Song, Emmy's Heart, Sarah's Fate and True North. That's FIVE ebooks...all for you!

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Post Day Release Day

Welp, yesterday was the big release of Timeless Love and other than my husband’s vasectomy and getting served with foreclosure papers, it was pretty uneventful. Oh, yeah, the foreclosure bit. My husband lost his job last year and we got in a bad spot. We’ve actually been working with a lawyer since last year so I don’t know what the hell is going on to be honest. I can tell you this, though. If I found out we paid that lawyer 2,500 for nothing, I will have his balls. It’s all been a very awful process. I resent my husband for losing his job and getting us into this mess, I want to keep my home but am pissed that we’re $80K upside down, like most of Florida. My biggest fear is that we have to leave and still owe money. You would think, with all of the issues in the market, they would want us to stay if we want to, which we do. We’ve been ready to make payments since Dec of last year but the lawyer told us not to. Again, his balls=mine. I hate that we got this info on a Friday night. How about Thursday night when I could call the guy and find out what the hell is going on?
Well, anyway, the real solution here would be for all of you to purchase Timeless Love and then Jenny Bent will take note and think, Oh yes, I remember her query letter for that YA book, call me, sign me, get me a book deal, make us (as in she and I) lots of money, and then I’ll move back out to Bryceville to my dream house. Hey – a girl can dream, yes? Well, for now, I’ll just take it as it comes, be thankful that my family and I are still together and as long as I have my laptop and internet, I don’t care where we live. Easy to please, that’s me. (hehehehehehe)

Please come by the Blog on Monday for a chance to win Timeless Love. The summer blog hop should be pretty good and if the summer heat won’t make you sweat, I can think of a few ways to help you out.

Until Monday, my loves!

Summer Blog Hop!

Starting June 5th come by the blog and enter for a chance to win Timeless Love for free! See, I told you followers of this blog would get stuff for free. See you on June 5th! =)

Barrons, Logline, and Pictures...oh my!

It’s almost here! I’m so excited! Timeless Love is all set and ready to go out to all of you romantic folks 6on /1/11. I’d like to do some sort of contest but seeing as how I only have two followers to date, might have to think of another platform to advertise. More on that soon…

Also, just to tell you, I’ve been reading the Fever Series by Karen Marie Moning and holy lord and sweet baby Jesus it’s good. I’m on the last book and am head over heels in love with Barrons. Like, dream about him at night, Edward Cullen who, in love with him. Yeah. It’s that serious. I highly recommend them. I’m working on something now with someone who causes stirrings deep inside my, um, soul, like Barrons does. His name is…well, more on that later.

Until next time, I leave you with the logline for Timeless Love: 

The only thing more timeless than the love between two souls is the passion that they share.

And some hot guys who I think would work as Barrons in a cinematic version of the series.

Timeless Love

I just got the cover for my new book, Timeless Love and I just wanted to show it off. I'm very happy with it and feel like it shows the passion between the main characters very well. My release date is June 1, 2012, so check back for a release contest to win this book for free and other goodies. Until then, here's a little snippet to wet your whistle.

“What is…” I’d turned around to ask Sam what type of material it was but his mouth was over mine before I could speak the words.

“You’re the one who’s beautiful.” His voice was muffled by the soft skin of my neck. I felt the familiar twinge between my legs that his touch caused. I knew I shouldn’t allow myself to get this carried away, it would only be more painful in the long run. When I felt his hands slip underneath my skirt and pull down my black panties, I gave up on that thought and gave in to the passion.

While pulling my skirt up, he moved us over to the sculpture and pushed me down so that I was sitting on the base. It was cool against my bare skin and Goosebumps arose across my arms as my nipples hardened under my silk blouse. He groaned and began to unbutton my shirt, tracing the exposed skin with his lips, then his tongue. First one breast was in his mouth, then the other; the sensation causing me to arch my back against the crystal trees.

“Don’t stop,” I coaxed, wanting more the more that I had.

“What do you want, Courtney? I want you to say it.”

“I want to feel your tongue slipping in and out of my pussy,” I told him, looking right into his eyes that were burning with his desire for me.

He kissed me, his left hand behind my head weaving his fingers through my hair, his right hand forcing my legs apart. The moment I felt his tongue tracing the lips of my pussy I had to contain my moan. God he felt so good, his lips and tongue working the outside and inside of my pussy over and over. His mouth clamped down on me and my body began to move with his rhythm. I placed both of my hands on the back of his head letting him know he’d found the perfect spot. His fingers were in me, pumping at just the right speed.

“I’m cuming. Oh God, I’m cuming,” I said breathless. He lapped up the clear liquid that began to leak out of me, giving me shivers that reached down to my toes.

When he stood up I could see how hard his cock was and wrapped my fingers around it pulling him to me. I was only able to put him inside my mouth once before he couldn’t take it. His pants were off and he was switching places with me before I could get my balance. He held onto me and I sat down in his lap, his hard cock filling me full. I rocked back and forth, squeezing him as he massaged and kissed my breasts. When he couldn’t take it anymore, he grabbed my ass and began to pull me up and push me down so that I was slamming onto him. I could feel him grow inside of me and then felt the spasm of his orgasm rock his body.

Hey, Hi, Hello!

Holy crap, I'm blogging! *Looks around* Aaaaand, no one cares. lol Well, I'm proud of myself. I'm a romance/erotica author and my 1st release, Timeless Love will be out Spring 2012 via: http://www.extasybooks.com Check back for updates, contests, and just good 'ol steamy romance short stories.

Who am I? My name is Lee Ralaine. That is my real name, but not what I go by in the real world. My bio:

Lee Ralaine was raised in France where she spent much of her youth traipsing around Paris. It was here that she met a young Frenchman with midnight blue eyes and a love for literature. He encouraged her to explore the written word and, Là vous l'avez,  her talent was born. After moving to the United States in 1991, she lived in a penthouse apartment in New York City, a Condo on the beach in Florida, and currently resides in a rustic cabin tucked neatly inside a Tennessee mountain range. She finds love every so often and writes about it in her novels that are really just the stories of her life. Or, she is just a down to earth, happy woman, with a job, a husband, a kid, some cats, and an overactive imagination. It’s up to you.

See you soon,
Lee